Update: Our Fertility Journey

Happy Friday, friends!

I can’t believe it’s been 6 weeks since my last update, but I don’t have much to share since the retrieval.

As I mentioned in my last post, I have been taking Lupron Depot since the beginning of July and the only side effect that I have experienced are HOT FLASHES.   That’s right, in the middle of summer with all of this humidity, I’ve been dealing with a roller coaster of sweats and chills.  I have at least one an hour, but in most cases I have 2 to 3 an hour.  They start with a burning sensation in my forehead and work down my entire body.   I know it’s gross but I get beads of sweat on my face, neck, arms, legs, stomach…all over.  I even sweat through my shirt sometimes…disgusting.  Once the hot flash passes, I get cold.  That repeats throughout the day and the night.  I haven’t slept well in over two months.

We went to the doctor on August 1st for a mock transfer and to discuss next steps for our zygotes.  I will admit, I was a little shocked about how that conversation went.  In my mind, we were going to have multiple IVF tries with the 7 frozen zygotes, which was really comforting.  I had never been through the thawing process, so I assumed that we would have several transfers.  Well, I was wrong.

Apparently, there is an 80% survival rate for thawed zygotes, which means we will end up with 5 or 6.  They will then develop for 3 days before the clinic tests them for quality.  At that time, the doctor will make a decision to either transfer or allow the embryos to develop until day 5.  Based on the history of how my embryos develop, the doctor thinks we will transfer day 3 and depending on the quality, we will transfer what we can.

I was shocked and I instantly started to worry.  This is it.  This is our final round of IVF and rather than having multiple transfers, we will have just one.  This is the end of our journey to have a biological child and that is so scary.  Rather than allow myself to stress and worry about it, I turned all of my energy into positive thoughts.  Since that day, I haven’t allowed myself to think anything but good things.  This is going to work.  We are going to get pregnant.  We are going to have a baby.   I continuously turn to God for comfort and strength.  I read my daily devotion as a reminder that He has a plan for us and I have to trust in that plan.

September is a big month for us.  On Tuesday the 30th of August, I go in for ultrasound/blood work and I start estrogen patches.  I’m on the patches for several weeks until I start progesterone oil shots on September 15th.  Our zygotes will be thawed on the 16th and transfer will be either the 18th or 20th.  I can’t believe it’s so close.  I’m so excited!

Thank you again for all of your love and support.  I’ll update you all again once we have transfer date.

With all my love,

Tiffany

Update: Our Fertility Journey

Happy Friday, friends!

Hope you all have had a great week.  Rudy and I have been at the beach this week with my family.  We have spent countless hours at the pool with the kiddos, walked on the beach, taken afternoon naps and have eaten anything and everything we wanted.  I’m sure I will regret that when I get back on the scale but I will just deal with that then.

I have not given an update since our egg retrieval on June 23rd, so I wanted to share the latest with you.  As I previously mentioned, Rudy was not able to be here for the retrieval as he has a business trip planned, so I had my dad and stepmom take me instead.  We arrived at the doctors office that morning around 8:30am and I was called back and hooked up to IVs by 9am.  Surgery was scheduled to begin at 9:45am, but those 45 minutes seem like eternity.  I get so anxious.  A thousand thoughts run through my mind…good thoughts and bad thoughts.  Dr. Katz came by to say good morning and asked how I was doing and I held back the tears.  It’s something about “How are you feeling?” that triggers emotions.  Luckily my dad and stepmom were able to take turns to keep me company and take my mind off things.

Then the time came.  They walked me back to the OR and got me situated and before I knew it I was waking up in the recovery room.  I apparently slept for 45 minutes after the surgery…guess I was tired.  Once I was fully awake, the doctor came by to tell me they retrieved 19 eggs…YAY, that is awesome. I was very happy with that number.  I had 20 eggs during my first IVF cycle and 15 in my 2nd cycle, so that sounded about right.

They instructed me to take it easy the rest of the day and they would call me tomorrow with updates on how many eggs fertilized and how many we had to freeze.  Friday came and they called to tell me that 12 of the eggs were mature enough to ICSI.  As a reminder, ICSI is just a fancy way to say fertilize.  They physically put the sperm with the egg.  Of those 12, seven were strong enough to freeze.  We froze on Day 1, so I think they are considered zygotes so we now have 7 frozen zygotes waiting for us.

Over the next two months, I am on Lupron Depot. I took my first shot on July 2nd and I will take another on August 2nd.  The shot lasts for 30 days and the doctor wants me to take it for 2 months to help suppress my endometriosis.  I will then start progesterone patches in September and take those for at least 18 days before we can do retrieval.   While we don’t know specifics about retrieval day we are headed into meet with Dr. Katz the first week of August to talk about next steps.  I’m so excited to know what’s next.  I’ll make sure to keep you updated!

Again, thanks for the continued support and love.  It means so much to us both!

xoxo,

Tiffany

3 things on my mind

As I prepare for my egg retrieval tomorrow, I thought it was the perfect time to share a few things on my mind. Let’s be honest, every thought on my mind is related to my IVF cycle, but here are few that keep running through my mind.

  1. What if this doesn’t work?  I will admit this is my biggest fear.  I’m not sure I am ready to accept that as my reality but I continuously warn myself that I may have to face it in the near future.  This process has taught me to be cautiously optimistic.
  2. I wish Rudy was here with me. Unfortunately, he had a work trip pop up.  When we started this process, we were thinking the retrieval would be the first week of July and we knew he would be back by then.  Well, things didn’t quite work out that way and now he will not be here during retrieval.  Although he is not physically here, he will be thinking about me and sending lots of love and prayers my way.
  3.  Regardless of what happens this time, God has a plan for us.  My devotion a few days ago read: “I am with you continually, so don’t be intimidated by fear.  Though it stalks you, it cannot harm you, as long as you cling to My hand. Keep your eyes on Me, enjoying Peace in My Presence.”  That is all I can do.  I have my eyes set on Him and know that he will guide us through this.

I don’t like asking for help but if you happen to read this, I just ask that you say a quick prayer that all goes well tomorrow.  This is the first step in our final attempt to have a biological child.

Giving it all to God!

xoxo,

Tiffany