36 Week Pregnancy Update

Well, my original plan was to write a little pregnancy update once a month throughout this pregnancy but I just realized that it has been almost two months since my last one.  That makes it clear just how fast these past several months have flying by.  I don’t remember feeling this way with Ryan.  I really enjoyed the final few months of the pregnancy and felt like I was able to take in all of the amazing moments before he arrived.  With this one?  It’s been a blur lately.  Every time I think about how we have only one month left, I have to double check my pregnancy app because I am in disbelief.

How far along? 36 weeks…although I will be having a c-section at 39 weeks

How am I feeling?  While I am definitely experiencing some discomfort, I LOVE this point in the pregnancy.  The bump, the movement, the bonding that has already begun…it’s all out of this world incredible.  Truthfully, before Ryan was born, I became highly emotional about the idea of not having him in my tummy anymore.  While I was obviously so excited to officially meet him, the thought of our special journey coming to an end made me sad.  Feeling him inside my tummy (and now feeling this little one) is the most amazing feeling I will ever experience.

As for the discomfort, this little chicklet feels very heavy by the end of the day…like I am walking around with a bowling ball under my shirt.  During the night, my hips ache and I have to constantly switch sides.  Thankfully, rolling over usually alleviates the pain long enough for me to fall back asleep for a bit.  It’s interesting because I was physically comfortable with Ryan during the entire last half of my pregnancy.  I am definitely carrying her differently.  Just to be clear, zero complaining happening here.  I would happily experience these uncomfortable symptoms for years in order to bring this sweet baby into the world.

Aversions?  Thankfully, no aversions.

Cravings? Everything.  I am only half-kidding.  For the last couple of months I have wanted to fluctuate between salty and sweet…within a matter of minutes.  If I finish a piece of chocolate, I then immediately want Cheez-Its.  The good news is that my fruit craving is still holding strong.  Now, if only I could figure out how to maintain that one post pregnancy…

Body Changes?  As I mentioned earlier, this baby is positioned differently than Ryan.  I am carrying her more towards the front so the one benefit is that I haven’t spread outwards as much as I did while pregnant with Ry.  My hips and thighs  spread far more the last time around.  Being active with a toddler during pregnancy has also helped.  A lot less sitting around and resting this time.  As far as weight gain goes, I will likely weigh almost exactly what I did with Ryan but I started this pregnancy with 12 extra lbs of baby weight that I never lost.  Basically, I will finish at the same weight but will have gained less.  I gained almost 50 lbs with Ry and then when I started to lose the weight, my husband opened a donut and biscuit shop so…that explains the 12 lbs that I never kicked.  I have ZERO will-power.

Nursery?  The nursery is slowly coming together.  Because I realized how little we initially used Ry’s nursery, there was less pressure this time around to complete her room.  I ordered the furniture a few weeks ago and it was just delivered last week.  Well, most of it was delivered.  I somehow managed to order everything except the chair so that will be arriving next week.  I opted for a fairly neutral nursery.  Our house is very monochromatic and it was important that her room blend in with the rest of the house.  There is a bit of color but it’s a very muted palette.  I have never been a “pink girl” so the gray walls have remained gray although I have selected a feminine wallpaper for the crib wall.  The furniture is a soft white with brass accents and her chair will be a sandy colored linen.  The wallpaper being hung on the crib wall will be installed today and I am crazy excited for that piece of the puzzle.  It should make a really nice impact.  I’ll post a sneak peek on Instastories later!

It’s hard to imagine that we will be a family of four in just a matter of a few weeks!  Excitement is beginning to dominate and squander the feelings of anxiety.  Truthfully, I have been so focused on my fears about being whether or not I can be a great mom to two kids.  Will I have enough patience for both?  How will I balance quality time with each child, more specifically make Ryan feel as minimal of an impact as possible during this major transition?   What does the day to day look like with a toddler and a baby?  Complete transparency, I felt overwhelmed by all of this until recently.  Now that it is so close to her arrival time, David and I are starting to dismiss those thoughts and just focus on preparing as best we can. While I would love for her to continue growing and stay where she is for a few more weeks, I am insanely excited to welcome her into our world!   I just walk into her room and feel overwhelmed with emotion.  The best part will be seeing Ryan move into the role of big brother.  That alone makes me cry because I know that he will be a phenomenal brother to our sweet girl.


At this point in the pregnancy, I find myself wanting to be more comfortable.  Concert tees, cardigans and sweatshirts are the most appealing pieces currently.  Thankfully, the weather is cooling down over the next week (not to mention he fact that I keep our house crazy cool right now because of hot flashes).  I recently picked up this velour hoodie and am excited because it it perfect for this phase of pregnancy as well as post-pregnancy.  It’s unbelievable comfy!






Pieces for Baby Girl’s Closet

Happy start to the week, everyone!  Hope you all had a wonderful weekend.

David has been out of town for the last week so Ryan and I spent a ton of amazing quality time together.  On Friday night, we had my nieces (ages 6 and 9) spend the night…making Ryan’s life complete.  He is completely obsessed with those girls and they are so sweet to him and so maternal.  At one point while the three kids were playing and I said, “Okay, Alex and Cam.  You seem to have this covered so I’ll be back in a few hours.”   They both whipped their heads around and responded, “Really?!”

My mom ended up coming over to help so the night went pretty darn perfectly.  I am always surprised that Ryan is so willing to go right up for bath and bedtime when the girls are here.  He never resists or tries to delay bedtime, even when he knows that other people are still awake in the house.  I guess being a cuckoo-crazy schedule-obsessed mom has its’ benefits.

The following day, I was able to spend a bit of time in the future nursery.  Our friends at California Closets are coming out this week to measure for an organization system in her little walk-in.  I did this with Ry’s closet before he was born and it helped me feel unbelievably prepared and organized when he arrived…and it continues to do so.  Cute little rompers, moccasins and stuffed animals have been slowly making their way into the room but we have zero furniture for her yet and no closet set up so everything is laying in disorganized piles on the floor.  It’s making me insane!  It’s crunch time and I really need to start feeling more prepared for her arrival.

Speaking of adorable little things…I wanted to share some of the pieces that I have purchased for this little one.  You’ll see that I am all over the place when it comes to style for her and I was the same way with Ryan.  Initially, I saw myself dressing her in very little pink but now I’ve fallen for beautiful blush tones.  I also didn’t think that she would have any florals in her little wardrobe but I keep finding sweet little bohemian style ropers and dresses and they are too cute to resist.  Because I tend not to dress super “girly”  in general, I imagined that she wouldn’t either.  That’s not to say that I am not equally as excited to dress her in Ryan’s black or gray hand me downs and throw little black Converse on her feet.  With Ryan, it took me a while before I finally settled on more of a style (which sounds incredibly silly, I realize) and it was eventually based on his personality.  I’m sure the same thing will happen with this little monkey as well.

Here are some of the pieces that I have found for baby girl…most of them were found at Nordstrom, Target and H&M.  It’s so nice because these stores offer such different price points.















It’s a…

Good morning, sweet friends!

Today is the day when we are finally able to share the gender of our new little one with you all.  You are going to think I have lost my mind when I tell you how long we have known the gender but I’ll explain why I haven’t shared until now.

I have previously been very open about the fact that we experienced a devastating loss when our identical twin boys were diagnosed with Twin to Twin Transfusion Syndrome at our anatomy ultrasound four years ago.  Due to the syndrome, we experienced a crushing loss when they were born far too prematurely only days later.  Because we had already had our sweet boys, and then along came our little love Ryan, David and I “knew” that we would have another boy.  Because of all that we have been through, we truly would have been happy either way.  Healthy baby.  Healthy baby.  Our instincts were simply so strong about having a boy.  We asked all of our closest friends and loved ones to guess and, interestingly, every female guessed boy and every male guessed girl.  Crazy, right?

Well, due to my lovely label of “Advanced Maternal Age”, we opted for a vast amount of genetic testing at just 12 weeks.  The genetic results came in less than a week later…those results included gender!

Because David and I wanted to find out at the same exact moment, we asked that the results be sent in a special email.  It was such a strange feeling to be anxious about the gender but also feel so confident that we already knew it would read, “Boy”.

The genetic counselor called to say that she had sent over the email containing the gender of our next little one.  I immediately called David and we decided to find out together over the phone.  There was no way would be able to wait until he was home from work that day!  I opened the email and staring at me were the words, “It’s a girl!”  I yelled those exact words to David and then literally became light-headed.  I was in absolute shock!  Beyond ecstatic but in shock!  David as well.  We both sat there repeating things like, “Really?” and “No way!”

I have said since I was approximately seven or eight years old, “When I grow up, I am going to have a boy and then I am going to have a girl three years later…just like my brother and me!”  Obviously, I thought I could map out my life at that age and you learn over time that there is a plan for you.  Not always a smooth ride but a plan nonetheless. With age grew the strong sense of not caring if we would have another boy or bring a girl in the family.  As I mentioned previously, we just wanted a healthy little one.  However, I do think it is so special for us to have a girl to complete our family.  I have an older brother and it’s just the two of us and David is an older brother to his sister and it’s just the two of them.  We are recreating our family circle and I think it’s pretty darn awesome. Plus, I CANNOT WAIT to see David with a little girl.  It’s going to melt my heart.

Thankfully, Ryan continues to come around to the idea of having a sibling and just announced last week that he would like a brother.  Ummm…sorry, kid.  He does talk about his sister when prompted so he’s not in total denial.  We have four more months to keep working on improving his excitement level.

Why did I wait so long to share the gender?  I honestly did not believe that it was a girl.  My doctor (who is basically like family at this point in our journey) teased me about the fact that the genetic test is 98-99% accurate.  My response was, “Yes, and I always fall in that 1-2%.”  I just wanted to make it until out anatomy ultrasound to 100% confirm that there was in fact a little girl growing in my belly!  I’m insane, I know.  I am certain that part of it was a defense mechanism.  I was SO happy to have one of each that I wanted to completely confirm before allowing myself to really settle into the idea of a boy and a girl.

Needless to say, we are beyond thrilled to be expanding our family and welcoming a little girl!

Thank you all so much for sharing along!!!

…and perhaps the picture which most accurately illustrates how Ryan feels about having a sister…

Finally, on the keeping-it-real tip, Ryan enjoying his Mounds bar reward for being in these pictures…