As I prepare for my egg retrieval tomorrow, I thought it was the perfect time to share a few things on my mind. Let’s be honest, every thought on my mind is related to my IVF cycle, but here are few that keep running through my mind.
- What if this doesn’t work? I will admit this is my biggest fear. I’m not sure I am ready to accept that as my reality but I continuously warn myself that I may have to face it in the near future. This process has taught me to be cautiously optimistic.
- I wish Rudy was here with me. Unfortunately, he had a work trip pop up. When we started this process, we were thinking the retrieval would be the first week of July and we knew he would be back by then. Well, things didn’t quite work out that way and now he will not be here during retrieval. Although he is not physically here, he will be thinking about me and sending lots of love and prayers my way.
- Regardless of what happens this time, God has a plan for us. My devotion a few days ago read: “I am with you continually, so don’t be intimidated by fear. Though it stalks you, it cannot harm you, as long as you cling to My hand. Keep your eyes on Me, enjoying Peace in My Presence.” That is all I can do. I have my eyes set on Him and know that he will guide us through this.
I don’t like asking for help but if you happen to read this, I just ask that you say a quick prayer that all goes well tomorrow. This is the first step in our final attempt to have a biological child.
Giving it all to God!